My behaviour is not based on reasononly on my true insanity.
My photographs are a quest for harmony and piece.
Since I was a child I have an innerworld and an outerworld. The outerworld is ruled by the clock and the calendar. In my innerworld time doesn't exist. I've always been challenged to balance those two worlds.
When I moved to Curaçao, the outerworld changed and disturbed my innerworld. In the beginning I tried to hold on to my believes and dreams. They had always offered me safety en security. The more I clinged on to, the more I got lost and rejected. My innerworld was completely up-side-down. I longed for harmony and peace. So I started to look for balance in the outerworld and begun to photograph scenes in the landscape that were in balance. I effaced people from the landscape, because I believed that people had disturbed the piece in my innerworld. Besides that I started to write, trying to capture the disturance that took place.
Making photographs and writing was my way to survive the disbalance between the outerworld and my innerworld.
In 2004 I started with Spiritual Astrology. I wished to know why this had been happening to me. Till then I always believed that 'the other' made my life miserable. Astrology learned me that I, myself, was 'the other'.
It was the best decission I'd ever made. Through Astrology I found answers which gave my life reason. It made me choose truely and consciously for life. From that moment on I was the only person who could change - and live my life.
